Amazed By Him

So the other night, as I am just laying in his bed with him, relaxing and falling asleep he decides that he is in the mood to listen to come music while he cuddle. The first song he plays I have never heard of but that didn't bug my cause I was in his arms and nothing could be better. And then I spoke too soon. He put on George Strait's Cross My Heart. He let it play as he just held me and sang every word in my ear. It was amazing. I loved it. Just thinking about it now I have a huge smile on my face. I really think I am falling in love with this kid. :-)


Cross My Heart Lyrics

Our love is unconditional, we knew it from the start.
I see it in your eyes, you can feel it from my heart.
From here on after let's stay the way we are right now,
And share all the love and laughter
That a lifetime will allow.

I cross my heart and promise to
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine.

You will always be the miracle that makes my life complete,
And as long as there's a breath in me, I'll make yours just as sweet.
As we look into the future, it's as far as we can see,
So let's make each tomorrow be the best that it can be.

I cross my heart and promise to
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine.

And if along the way we find a day it starts to storm,
You've got the promise of my love to keep you warm.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine,
A love as true as mine.

That song will never have the same meaning ever again. I have been sitting on my computer for 2 hours with that song on repeat and doing different things around my room and I know I have been smiling and it has never left my face. This feeling is amazing.

Thank God That's Over

I am so glad Christmas is over and this year is almost. I want to start a new year fresh. No one to hold me back. I want to be me and please no one but myself.

Tomorrow is Christmas

And I really don't have any Christmas spirit. I'm not sure if it has to do with this is the first holiday without Jeff or is it's just because I'm getting too old for Christmas. I don't it's because it's my first holiday without Jeff. I'm over that shit. I am happy with my life now. There are presents under the tree and Christmas music on and all I want to do it turn it off, take down the tree and move on to next year. Maybe it's cause I'm ready to move forward in my life. I wont be by myself I have a really cool guy that's really into me, well I think he is, and some awesome friends. I am so happy to start the New Year with a fresh start. It's about time. I have been talking to a few friends and they think it's time for a new start. Try new things and just go back to being me. I would have to agree. I like the old me and not the me I have become over the past 4 years. I think that even my family is happy to have my back. I want to go back to being the old me with a few new twist. We will see what the New Years has in store for me.

Him

Why is it that no matter how bad of a day I am having or how much I really could care less if I was alive, he can always make me smile no matter what? It's crazy. I have only known him for a little over a month and I feel like I have known him so much longer. He gets me and why I do things. He even can describe my facial expressions over the phone when I get frustrated with him. I have never had anyone around that could do that. That smile of his could brighten up my day on the worst day of my life. He has this one cute dimple on the right side that kills me every time I see it. He kisses my forehead and I instantly melt. He literally makes me go weak in the knees. Even Jeff couldn't do that. I know a lot of people say its way to early for me to jump into a serious relationship and I know they are right but there is just something about this guy that I can't get out of my head. Every time his name pops up on my phone I get all giggly and It's nice to know that feeling still exist. I lost a lot of feelings for Jeff over the years and forgot that some even still could make me happy until Jason came along. It's a feeling I can't even describe. Just writing this I am smiling like crazy.

Happy

Just wanted people to know that  I am happy. Things right now are awesome. Been talking with this really great guy that I really like. I am so tired of people asking me if I am ok and how am I doing? I am fine people. I promise. If I wasn't ok you would know. Trust me. I am so over feeling sorry for myself. I broke up with him for a reason and I have to deal with that. I am happy with my decision. I wasn't happy in that relationship. Why stay in something and with someone when I am not happy? Isn't that the point of being with someone? Because they make you happy? I thought so. At least that is what I was taught. This new guy is awesome. Really nice and sweet and treats me like I am an actual person and not someone that he made me out to be. I smile when I am around him and a lot of my friends already like him. Even a few said "It's about damn time". Haha. Gotta love those guys. I don't want to bring him around my dad and the rest of my family yet until that moment I know that he is someone that will be around for a while. He did get me an awesome gift for Christmas though. He got me a beautiful heart necklace. He must have figured out that I love hearts since every piece of jewelry I wear has hearts in it and so do both of my tattoos. Well it's almost time for my New Years resolutions. Be on the lookout!!!

Change Of Life

I cant remember if I posted it or not but Jeff and I are no longer together. I had to do it because one, I didnt want to move and two, I just wasnt happy anymore. Im at a time in my life when I should be experiencing new things and not being tired down. I just want to have fun and finish school and start and career. I have put it off long enough. My main focus in life now are my family and friends. I will always love Jeff no matter what but I needed this and I think he did too whether he wanted to admit it or not. Its time to mend old friendships and begin new ones. Its gonna be hard to love someone again but I know it will happpen. I can feel it. Im happy now and everyone says thats all that matter and I have to say that I agree. I need someone to make me smile, to treat me like I should be treated and that loves me for me and not the person they made me out to be.

The Hardest Thing

I had to do the hardest thing ever last night. I told Jeff that I didn't want to move to Placerville. I am just not ready to move yet. I'm not sure if I would ever want to move up there and be away from my family. What he doesn't realize is that if he moves up there he has family and friends, if I move up there I have no family and the friends up there aren't the ones I want. I want my best friends and my awesome-ist friend and my bowling friends. If I go there, they wont be there and that sucks. I am not ready to give that up. He looked completely broken up but he said everything would be ok. We would work through this and he didn't want to break up. I put everything out on the table. I told him if he gets a house down here I would move in with him in a heartbeat but I don't think that will ever happen. I'm not that lucky. I t hurt to bad to tell him but I couldn't hold it in anymore. He needed to know. This is a great way to start off the holiday season. We have our annual Christmas Extravaganza tomorrow evening and then Rob & Crystal's Christmas party next Saturday. We are busy busy people. Which is good cause it keeps my mind off of everything.

Well I'm gonna try and fight of the stupid flu and get better. I refuse to spend another holiday season sick.

Busy

Holy crap things are busy. I cant believe its almost christmas. It feels like the year just started. Work has been good and things at home have been getting better. Things with Jeff have been a little crazy lately but nothing we cant handle.

Happy Late Thanksgiving

I hope everyone had an awesome Thanksgiving. Now time to get ready for Christmas?

You guys ready?

Wish You Were by Kate Voegele

Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary
So here I am, a Utopian citizen
I'm Still convinced there's no such thing as idealism

Well Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreaming
Cause I've already suffered the fever of disbelief

 But I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
But I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I was true as the sky is blue
But I couldn't soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind

So tell me when I'll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
Cause I don't want to keep on believing in illusions

Cause I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

Sometimes I can't explain
And I'm so sorry that I can't
I'll try to concentrate
On your true identity

Cause I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were

Cause I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I Wish you were here
I Wish you were here
I Wish you were here
I wish you were here

I'm Sick Of The Shit

It is my facebook.

I can post MY opinions on it because it is MY page.

If you don't like it block me, delete me, do whatever.

I don't care.

I'm just tired of getting told what I can say and what I can't say on MY FACEBOOK!!!!

Been Kind Of MIA

Been super busy with work and now with the holidays coming up its gonna be even more hectic. Things are crazy around here.

More soon though. I promise.

So True

The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not, it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices, or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is, but for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question. What's worse; not getting everything you wished for or getting it all but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be with. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now.

-Haley James Scott

My Poor Jeffy

I think he had too much to drink. He might be sleeping on the bathroom floor tonight. Lol. Happy Birthday Melissa!

Fuck This Shit

I hate when someone let's someone else run their life. I'm not aloud to speak to you because of him. That's bullshit. I cant stand him for what he did to you and yet you still take him back. That's crap. And now you are letting him tell you that you can't talk to me. That's even more crap. You are not the person we all thought you were. We thought you would never let a guy run your life like they have in the past but I guess that's just how its gonna work. As for now I guess it's good-bye but I hope that some day soon you realize he isn't right for you.

Thanks

Thanks for letting me vent on here earlier.
I just needed to get it off my chest.
We are still looking for a house.
Our realtor went out of town for a few days.
We decided to hold off on looking for a house while he is gone.
I hope we find one soon.
It does suck when you find a house you like and it is sold.
Get this week off of work and then I go back on the 15.
It should be an interesting 3 or 4 months.
I really wish that Jeff would start acting his age.
I want to date a 25 year old not a 5 year old.
Grow up!
GOOD NIGHT!

Busy Busy Busy

Holy damn have I been busy. Been working a lot which is good. Was up at Heritage High School for a while. I applied for that position but I didn't get it. Does that surprise you? Not me. I'm now training at the district office for a week for a position I will start on November 15. I am taking the place of the data processor who is gonna have a baby. Good for me because I will be there until the end of February. Yay for me. I will be rollin' in money. Hell yeah. Ha Ha Bitches.

So the stress of looking and buying a house is taking its toll on both Jeff and I. We found this house we both really liked and decided that we would put an offer in on it. So the guy said he would give us an answer on Monday. Ok fine. Monday rolls around and he calls and says that an offer came in over the weekend and he would give us an answer on Tuesday. Tuesday comes and goes with no call. Wednesday rolls around and Jeff, our realtor and I are pissed because he tells us again "Another off came in. We will choose by tomorrow (meaning Thursday)." We will call by 9am. Guess what? No calls at 9am. He finally called around 7:30pm and said they decided to take a cash offer. No we are all pissed even more, but we had to let that house go. So we found another house and before we could even go see it, it sold. This is really starting to suck. We keep striking out. I hope out house comes along soon. I don't know how much more of this I can handle.

Things at home seem to be getting better between my dad and I. We arent arguing as much anymore but I think it's time I really move out. We just butt heads too much for me to stay there. I still love him though. He has a new woman. She is really cool. She is good for my dad. I hope it will go some where. He deserves it.

Oh so on an ha ha stupid note. I have this friend who was seeing this guy for about 4 months and then she started getting these text messages from this chick talking all this crap. Comes to find out that the chick texting her was his wife and he was still married with 2 kids and 1 on the way. WTF? She confronted him about it and he said that he filed for a divorce. Well that stuff is public record, so she went down to the courthouse and found nothing about him filing for a divorce. She broke it off with him like she should of done. I go and see her the other day and guess what... they are back together. He has her serve his soon-to-be-ex-wife with divorce papers so she would know that he really wanted to be with her. I would never have taken him back. Once a liar always a liar. She was hella afraid to tell me too. I refuse to hang around with him and she knows that. So that means I get to spend less time with her cause she stays with him! Oh wait... did I forget to mention that? Sorry. SO STUPID!!!!

I really don't understand why people go and cheat on their significant others. What the hell is wrong with them? If they are really unhappy in their relationships, which they must be if they stray, why cheat? Why don't you just end it? It would be better that way .I have seen way to many people, including myself, get the bad end of a cheating relationship. Come on people grow the fuck up and do the right thing. Don't cheat

I Think We Found It

I really think we finally found our house. We found this amazing house tonight in Oakley. 4 bedrooms 2 bath. House is over 1800 Square feet and it's on a lot of over 6300 Square Feet. It's awesome. We are waiting to hear from our agent about making sure that everything that has been done to the house from previous owners was done with permits and if it is I think we are going to put an offer in maybe as early was tomorrow. I cannot believe it. Things are finally coming together. Today is a great day.

In other news, I know many of you have been following stories about the Chilean miners that have been stuck in the mine for 70 days. I don't know if anyone watched it but we had it up at work.... they brought all the miners up. It was amazing to watch. Seeing all the families come together and see how even after 70 days love never fails. It's pretty awesome to see.

Work has been good. Have an interview on Friday for the clerk typist position at Heritage High. I'm not going to get my hopes up this time. What ever happens, happens and it happens for a reason. That's my new motto for life.

I'm determined to get up with enough time to do my make up in the morning. I feel like I want to look pretty tomorrow so leave me be.

GOOD NIGHT!

I'm Back

The trip to Aruba was AMAZING. I had so much fun. I will have to make a long post about it later. Way too much to tell and not a whole lot of time. I will post a link to the pictures too.

Back to work on Monday. Hope I am adjusted back to the time by then

Barbie Joke

One day a father gets out of work and on his way home he suddenly remembers that it's his daughter's birthday. He pulls over to a Toy Shop and asks the sales person, 'How much for one of those Barbie's in the display window?'

The salesperson answers, 'Which one do you mean, Sir? We have: Work Out Barbie for $19.95, Shopping Barbie for $19.95, Beach Barbie for $19.95, Disco Barbie for $19.95, Ballerina Barbie for $19.95, Astronaut Barbie for $19.95, Skater Barbie... for $19.95, and Divorced Barbie for $265.95'.

The amazed father asks: 'It's what?! Why is the Divorced Barbie $265.95 and the others only $19.95?'

The annoyed salesperson rolls her eyes, sighs, and answers: 'Sir..., Divorced Barbie comes with: Ken's Car, Ken's House, Ken's Boat, Ken's Furniture, Ken's Computer, one of Ken's Friends, and a key chain made with Ken's balls

Less Than 48 Hours

I leave for Aruba in less than 48 hours. I cannot believe how fast this trip has come up. Got most of my packing done today. Going to finish up the rest tomorrow and then I will be ready to go. Adios mother fuckers. I'm blowing this candy stand!!!

Single Digits

Aruba is exactly 9 days away!!! I'm excited. The boyfriend is going hunting this weekend. I think it will be good to get away from each other for the weekend. We spend way too much time together. That's not good. We did look at a house tonight that we both really liked and if there aren't any offers put in on it, Jeff said he might put in an offer. This house was super nice. 3 bedroom 2 full bath. It was awesome. I get to spend some time with Leighanne tomorrow night. Abby was supposed to be with us too but she has been being a stupid fucking bitch lately. So when she said she was going to hang out with Nathan it didn't bother us. It was more of a relief.

So it was one week ago today San Bruno blew up. Here's to remember all the people that lost their lives and to the ones who are still fighting for them.

I Hate When

I hate when people make plans with you and then in the middle of hanging out they leave to hang out with someone else. Why do you bother making plans to hanging out with me knowing that you are gonna leave? That's fucked up. And now you know why me and this person arent that close anymore.

Angel by Kate Voegele

I've said it once and I'll say it again
I've got something hanging over my head
I was laying on your shoulder, perfectly content
Until you told me all over again

I ain't got no sob story to write
but just like everyone else I'm living this life
And you don't need to win me over
And there ain't no other side
to shelter me from
I belong where I decide

But you say we don't mess around,
you've got no freedom to come down
We don't take angels from the sky
Oh no we don't mess around,
you're meant to be among the clouds
Cause you're an angel
But that's a lie

Well I suppose you think I'm so flattered to hear
that I'm the whisper conscience in your ear
And that's exactly the reason that I'll never fit in here
Well nothing's ever that black and white my dear

But you say we don't mess around,
you've got no freedom to come down
We don't take angels from the sky
Oh no we don't mess around,
you're meant to be among the clouds
Cause you're an angel
But that's a lie

I'm not your angel, darling
I'm not your angel, darling
(I'm never gonna be)
I'm not your angel, darling
I'm not your angel, darling
(I'm never gonna be)

We don't mess around,
you've got no freedom to come down
We don't take angels from the sky
Oh no we don't mess around,
you're meant to be among the clouds
Cause you're an angel
But that's a lie

Things Have Been Crazy

Ever since Tuesday things around my house have been crazy, sad, depressing. My dad is so devastated about what happened. He can't seem to shake this one. I know it's gonna take a while but I hate seeing him cry like this. He still can't believe it happened. We have him filed for unemployment and he has been looking for a new job like crazy. At least he isnt just sitting around doing nothing. He knows that he needs to get back out there. He is waiting to hear back on a few things and is ready to go look other places. He has plenty of people to give him recommendations which is amazing. Doctors and patients which is even better. He told me he isn't too proud to do anything. I know he will get through it. He just needs to keep his head up. He knows he has family that will be there for him no matter what and we are here to help. I had a nightmare last night that I came home one day and he had killed himself. I freaked out. Every time I come home I'm afraid to come through the door because I don't know what I will find. It's scary. I cannot wait for this phase to be over with.

Piece of Shit

So my dad has been working for the same place for over 10 years. Today he had a patient who was feeling a little low. He put his hand on this elderly mans shoulder and was singing a song. His supervisor saw this and escorted my dad to her office and fired him on the spot saying it was sexual harassment. Really? What the fuck. Fuck that place and now you see why I didnt want to fucking work for you people again. Not even 2 hours after it happened my dad got another job from the guy down at the ford dealership working for his other place of business. So here's to your Muir Orthopaedics (Who can't even spell Orthopedics right) Specialist. FUCK YOU!!!!

Oh La La

So I have been sick since Friday night. Man I wish I would just feel better already. The more I sleep the worse I feel. I always thought that the more sleep you got was supposed to make you feel better. (This commerical that reminds me of Abby is on. Ha Ha) Oh back on track. I have done nothing today but sit on my ass. It's the end of August and it's only like 75 out with the wind blowing. Holy Shit. We have not had a summer. I am kind of looking forward to Aruba. It will be warmer. But I hope I get better first. Did a little bit more shopping on Saturday for an outfit to wear on the plane. This week I have to go and get the last few things. I cannot wait. 26 more days and my ass will be on the beach soaking up the rays. I plan on coming back with some colors. Nothing but shorts and bathing suits. I'm not at the weight I wanted to be at but I dont have much of a choice. Oh well. So I am just noticing that a lot of my friends are having kids. Did I miss something? Am I the only one who wants to be married and have a house before I have a baby. I don't mind if I am not finished with school but I can go back to school later on.

Fuck You

I really hate when people start telling me what I can and cannot post on my own facebook. Really thats a bunch of bull shit. I hate when he does shit like that. I dont fucking control his life so dont try to control mine. Im thinking it might be time to start thinking about going our separate ways for a while. im starting to get annoyed with his shit. I need to get away and yet I'm going to be stuck with him for 2 weeks in Aruba. Wont that be fun? Fuck you!!!!!

LET IT GO

Jesus Christ Jeff. I went out with a whole shit load of girls to a please party. Your sister in law and your cousin and you think I am hiding something from you? Holy shit grow the fuck up. I am not hiding anything from you. God damn. If I was I just would be my normal person. I am good at hiding my feelings so it should be easy to hide if I was cheating on you. I AM NOT FUCKING CHEATING ON YOU. GROW UP DUMBASS!!!!!!!

Oops Sorry

I know it's been a while but I have had a whole bunch of things going on. It's been nuts. Dealing with people's shit like always. Jeff's racing has taken another turn and he is racing a dirt modified. Work has started up again but I havent been called which pisses me off cause I have been there the longest and other people are being called ahead of me. Bull shit. I will be attending Wally Kindt's memorial service tonight. Rest in Peace Uncle Wally!

Rambling

I figured it was time for a lengthy update.
Not much drastic has been going on lately.

Jeff and I had a tiff, but nothing we couldn't get through.
We hit our 4 year anniversary next Thursday.
I cannot believe it's been that long.
Now all I am doing is waiting for him to pop the question.

I have procrastinated too much that now I dont have any classes for the Fall semester.
Oh well.
Just one more thing keeping me from getting any schooling finishing.
Still dont know what I am going to do.
Paralegal or Teaching?
That is the question.

Racing has been on hold for the last month or so.
Jeff got into one night on the track with another driver and had to get escorted off the track and out of the pits.
Good going Jeff.

The summer has been full of many camping trips with awesome people.
Lots of drinking.
Lots of pictures.
Tons of Music.
SUMMER 2010!!!!

Still have the 3 most awesome friends
Kelly. Courtney. Abigail.
Together til the end.
There is drama here and there but nothing I canot handle.
There is one thing I hate though.
Stupid bitches who hear part of a conversation and think they know it all and blab their mouth.
SKANK!

I have read all of the Twilight books in less than 2 weeks.
I cannot wait for Breaking Dawn to come out in theatres in 484 days.
I have seen Eclipse 3 times since it's been in theaters.
Seeing it a midnight with all the Twlight freaks was an experence.
Fun though.

Met a bunch of new and great friends so far this summer.
Camping. At the races.
New people are always nice.

Family is doing ok.
Not much to update their.
Grandma is going to Maui this summer for a wedding.
I go to Aruba in September.

Summer vacation is over as of tomorrow.
Back to work on Monday.
Well I don't know when I go back because I'm a sub.
The district goes back in session on Monday.
Where did my summer go?

My Birthday is in less than a month.
The BIG 23.
Man I feel old. (haha)

That is all for now.

Bullard's Bar 2010

Well this years Bullard's bar trip was very eventful. A first for a whole lot of things. This year we had many newcomers to the trip. My one and only best friend Courtney came with us. Along with her we had Keith, Andrew, Z, Laura, Shane & Jennifer. Our group keeps getting bigger. It was one hell of a trip. Lots of shooting going on and lots of sunshine. Very warm trip this year. No animals like there have been in the past. Our last night there was eventful. A group of us went down to the water to watch the stars and just relax when a person hanging out with the other group came down and informed us that one of our campers had been arrested. WTF??? We had no idea what was going on. I guess he was passed out drunk in his truck and I guess thats a big NO NO. So he was taken by Yuba County Sheriff into Marysville and booked for the night in the drunk tank. He was released the following morning. A camper went to pick him up and he returned to camp and never said a word. Just weird. Had some great memories and some that I would like to forget. Got to spend some time with my little Isabella. I miss her so much. Well until next time Bullard's bar....

B-NAVY!!!!!!

I want to be the first to say how proud I am of Mr. Britton Russell. He got accepted into Bosie State! Fuck yeah bitches. Broncos for Life!!!

Updating

Well not much is going on. Toady is mine and Jeff's 47 month anniversary. We are a month away from being today for 4 years. Damn. It's been forever. Lets see that would be 1430 days 17 hours and 53 minutes. Damn that's a long time.

Love me life? I think so.

Busy Busy

I cannot believe what the rest of my summer looks like. It's absolutley nuts. We are heading to the cabin now for a wedding for a few friends. Then next weekend it's the 4th of July so we are going to the cabin. The weekend after that is bullards bar. The weekend after that we have a party for a friend and the weekend after that is the Ben and the Burnouts reunion show. Then I got back to work. Where the hell did my summer vacation go?
Things have been good though. Trying to keep myself out of everyone's drama. It seems to be working. Jeff decided to give himself a 2 race suspension. Ha ha it's really cause we won't be in town but that's what we are calling it. I dont think the track would of done anything. That had too much other shit to deal with. So other than that, nothing really new going on. Just waiting for my birthday and Aruba!!!! I cannot wait for that vacation! It's about to be off the hook.

:(

Jeff left yesterday for a week. It sucks. You have no idea. I hate sleeping in an empty bed. I have no one to keep me warm. This blows. At the moment I'm sitting in my own bed, listening to the dog bark at someone across the street. What has my life come too? It's Friday night and I'm at home by myself. God I feel old. I did get a lot done today though. Went out to lunch with my grandma, cousin and uncle. It was a much needed lunch out. Then I came home and went over to Abby's to go shopping with her for her 16th birthday bash next Friday. We put all the gift bags together and got all the decorations. Should be a bright colored party. Black, Purple and Orange are the colors to be exact. oOo tomorrow is the big $5000 to win modified show at Antioch. They are expecting at least 70 cars. That's a whole shit load if you ask me. Summer is offically half over. This makes me sad cause I know I have to go back to work soon. I do have some huge things coming up though. A's game next Friday night, A wedding in Don Pedro next Saturday, 4th of July at the cabin and the weekend after that is the big Bullard's Bar camping trip. I have one weekend off and then it back to work. Why cant we have a normal summer vacation. Oh and then Aruba will be coming up too and mine and Jeff's 4 year anniversary. Damn it's been a long time. I am thinking of doing the Autism Awareness walk in October. Working with those kind of kids, makes programs like this, stay close to your heart.

Saturday Nights Fiasco

So Saturday night Jeff raced at Antioch. I got to ride passenger in Randy's pure stock it was a blast. Randy and I finished 3rd in the heat and I think 7th in the main. Not quite sure though. Jeff went out for the main and he started outside front row. Awesome. About 6 or 7 laps in the 6 car of Gary Nelson kept slamming into the back of Jeff's car going down the front stretch, trying to push him up and out of the way to get by. Going into turn one Nelson pushed Jeff to hard and spun him out which ending up having Nelson run right over the front of Jeff's car. Jeff let his frustrations get the best of him and when he got the car going, he drove around to find Nelson and as he puts it “I made his car shorter for him.” Jeff ran into his tail tank and almost took Nelson into the wall. Jeff was black flagged of course but refused to get off the track. They had to red flag the race and towed Jeff off the track to ensure he was not to race again tonight. The tow truck driver was a complete asshole cause as soon as he got the car up and starting to tow off he stepped on the gas and then slammed on the brakes and had Jeff's car go flying into the back of the truck. Not only did that piss Jeff off but as the tow truck was coming through the pits my dad jumped half way through the tow truck window and was about to beat the shit out of the town truck driver. After they dropped the car off at the trailer, karma would come back to Nelson.

His car caught fire and as soon as he got out of the car his girlfriend came up to me and bitching at me cause, I quote “You stupid little fucking cunt, your driver could of killed him. I'm gonna kick your ass stupid bitch.” I looked at her and just as I was about to say something she got pulled away as did I. They kids dad starting flying after Jeff but didnt get far. Ha ha dumbass. Security then told us we need to pack up our shit and leave. Get the fuck out of here. Well ok then.

As we were leaving the pits there were about 50 or so fans standing at the gate cheering and clapping for Jeff for what he had done. I looked at Jeff and said I dont think I have ever seen someone have a standing ovation when they left the pits. We continued to drive home and people were driving by honking and waving and still cheering. We pulled into the court and had a caravan of about 5 or so cars that followed us home for a party. It was awesome.

So to make matters worse, this stupid bitch at the race track runs a facebook page for the track, unbenounced to them. this is what she wrote which pissed a whole crap load of people off.

"#6 takes out 14 on the restart, who then goes looking for revenge and refuses to leave the track when given the black flag - he has to be escorted off the track. They are actually having to bring a tow truck over to waste everyone's time as a result. I think someone left their big boy panties at home today. Security is now being called to the pit."

I have a feeling next race this bitch will get knocked out and it sure wont be by me. She pissed a lot of people off.

Congrats Courtney L. Crabb

Courtney. Rocky. Best Friend. Sister. Rockstar.

I am so very proud of you. Watching you walk across that stage tonight brought tears to my eyes. I'm not going ot lie. I know tonight was hard without your dad there but you know he is watching over. We were all there to watch you end the first chapter of your life and start a new one. So here's to the many nights of not knowing what to do and the many many memories to come. I love you girl like you were family. I will always be there for you. When you came up to me and gave me a hug and broke down in tears, that was it for me. I was done for. I barely cried at my own graduation. Thank you for letting me share this special day with you and your family. Let's go make our own memories this summer! It's about to ROCK!!!