Tomorrow is Christmas

And I really don't have any Christmas spirit. I'm not sure if it has to do with this is the first holiday without Jeff or is it's just because I'm getting too old for Christmas. I don't it's because it's my first holiday without Jeff. I'm over that shit. I am happy with my life now. There are presents under the tree and Christmas music on and all I want to do it turn it off, take down the tree and move on to next year. Maybe it's cause I'm ready to move forward in my life. I wont be by myself I have a really cool guy that's really into me, well I think he is, and some awesome friends. I am so happy to start the New Year with a fresh start. It's about time. I have been talking to a few friends and they think it's time for a new start. Try new things and just go back to being me. I would have to agree. I like the old me and not the me I have become over the past 4 years. I think that even my family is happy to have my back. I want to go back to being the old me with a few new twist. We will see what the New Years has in store for me.