Things Have Been Crazy

Ever since Tuesday things around my house have been crazy, sad, depressing. My dad is so devastated about what happened. He can't seem to shake this one. I know it's gonna take a while but I hate seeing him cry like this. He still can't believe it happened. We have him filed for unemployment and he has been looking for a new job like crazy. At least he isnt just sitting around doing nothing. He knows that he needs to get back out there. He is waiting to hear back on a few things and is ready to go look other places. He has plenty of people to give him recommendations which is amazing. Doctors and patients which is even better. He told me he isn't too proud to do anything. I know he will get through it. He just needs to keep his head up. He knows he has family that will be there for him no matter what and we are here to help. I had a nightmare last night that I came home one day and he had killed himself. I freaked out. Every time I come home I'm afraid to come through the door because I don't know what I will find. It's scary. I cannot wait for this phase to be over with.