Thursday, May 31, 2012

A Big Change

So today, I had a bit of a scare. I went to the doctor today and found out I am pre-hypertensive. It was a huge shock. It's something that if not treated or brought under control, it can kill me. We are going to try and curve it with what they call the "Dash diet". People at my age should not have hyper tension. It's not good at all. I have to watch what I eat, exercise more among other things. It's a big eye opener. Today starts a new way of life.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

My Motivational Quotes For Working Out [to be updated]

It takes 4 weeks for you to see your body changing. It takes 8 weeks for your family and friends and it takes 12 weeks for the rest of the world. KEEP GOING!!

One pound at a time!

Girls who are naturally skinny are lucky but the girls who have had to fight to be skinny are strong.

Skinny is not sexy. Healthy is!

Running cheaper than therapy.

Don't throw away all of yesterdays progress today.

Train insane or remain the same!

I AM FAT! No, I am not. I just have fat. My weight does not define me.

Every day is a step closer.

Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become words. Keep your words positive because words become behavior. Keep your behavior positive because behavior becomes your habits. Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values. Keep your values positive because your values become your destiny.

You can't just put in the time. You have to put in the effort.

Don't stop until your proud.

Wake up with determination. Go to bed with satisfaction!

PASSION!! Pushing yourself when no one else is around.

Strong is the new skinny!

If it's important to you, you'll find a way. If not, you'll find an excuse.

Kick higher! Push longer! Run faster! Make it to the finish line and keep going. You can do this!

Make your supporters proud and your haters jealous!

When you work out, your problems diminish and your confidence grows.

A workout is a personal triumph over laziness and procrastination.

Don't just talk about it. Be about it.

Transformation is not 5 minutes from now; it's a present activity. In this moment you can make a different choice, and its these small choices and successes that build up over time to help cultivate a healthy self-image and self-esteem.

Every journey begins with a single step, but you'll never finish if you don't start.

The body achieves what the mind believes.

There are no "tricks". There is only working hard, eating right, and knowing that you can do whatever you decide to do.

It's not going to be easy, but it's going to be worth it.

The voice that says you can't do it, is a lying slut.

Don't be afraid to fail. Be afraid not to try.

Working out doesn't have to be a chore. Have fun with it.

I'd rather feel sore tomorrow than sorry.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or what other people think of it.

The voice in your head that says that you cant do this is a liar.

Fit is not a destination. It's a way of life.

Changing who I am, one rep at a time.

You've got to work for it. Stop wishing and start doing.

Unless you puke, faint or die, keep going.

Three 'C' of life. Choices. Chances. Changes. You must make the choice to take a chance of your life will never change.

Prove if to everyone who said you couldn't do it.

You can do more. You can always do more.

There are 2 choices: Make progress or make excuses.

Skinny girls look good in clothes. Fit girls look good NAKED!

I want to lose weight. I want to gain self control. I want to be healthy. I want to be skinny. I want abs. I want to be sexy. I will do this. I will succeed. I will conquer.

If you still look pretty afterward, you didn't do it right.

Imagine yourself, a year from now with the body you've always wanted. All your hard work finally paying off. Exercise, eat healthy and stay positive.

I'm sore! I'm Tired! It's Sunday! I'm too busy! It's boring! I'm too fat! I'm thin! Jersey Shore is on! I'll do it tomorrow! Stop making excuses and get off your ass!

Success is my only option. Failures not!

I'm tired of looking like this!

I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday.

No one can defeat me unless I first defeat myself.

It doesn't get easier. You get stronger.

If you cheat, you're only cheating yourself.

Motivation is what gets you going. Habit is what keeps you going.

At first you feel like dying, but then you feel reborn.

CARPE DIEM!!!

When you exercise, wear all black. It's like a funeral for your fat!

If you aren't sweating, you aren't doing it right.

To see what you are made of.

Because who doesn't want to feel better.

RESPECT YOUR BODY!

Because I demand more from myself than anyone could ever expect.

To be able to run double digits.

Because I am committed.

All the pain you go through is just pain leaving your body.

Strength from the outside comes from the strength from the inside.

Push yourself beyond your limits.

Focus on what motivates you!

Sweat is your fat crying.

We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.

Do it for the body! For the confidence! For the pride! To look back and say never again! But most importantly... Do it for yourself!

I never regret it when I do it. I regret when I don't do it!

Want something? Work for it! No one has ever drowned in sweat!

Your strength shouldn't be a waste basket.

No matter how slow you are, you are still lapping everyone on the couch.

Don't complain about being fat if you're not going to do anything about it.

Stop competing with others and start competing with yourself.

No, your legs aren't that tired. Yes, you can still breathe! KEEP GOING!

The stronger you are, the better you feel.

You don't always get what you ask for but you always get what you work for.

Limitations only exist if you let them.

If you aren't working towards it, than maybe you don't deserve it.

The reason why people give up so fast is because they tend to look at how far they still have to do, instead of how far they've gotten.

Train like there's no finish line.

IGNORE JUNK FOOD!

You are whoever you want to be. you just have to decide to be it.

The only one who can tell you "you can't" is you. And you don't have to listen.

I'm doing this for confidence, strength, the feeling after a workout, gratitude, health, pride, control, happiness.... ME!

Believe you can and you will.

When your legs get tired, run with your heart.

Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.

The pain of discipline is far less than the pain of regret.

I refuse to give up on myself.

You are far too smart to be the only thing standing in your way.

Strong is what happens when you run out of weak.

Food is not the enemy. Unhealthy food is the enemy. Get it right.

There is nothing wrong with being an exersice-aholic.

To not be remembered as the fat one.

To give your body the respect you would give your mother.

Look food and feel good.

Because at first they'll ask you why you're doing it, but then they'll ask you how you did it.

To show that I haven't given up on myself.

Pain is temporary! Quitting is forever!

Because it's not a complete day if you don't work out.

To be an example for my family.

To show men that women can do it as well.

To live better, not just longer.

I am my own biggest competitor, critic and most importantly, supporter.

So I can beat the treadmills ass.

For the feeling when you tell people how much you've worked out today.

To beat your boyfriend in a push-up competition.

I've had enough rest days to last a lifetime.

To do amazing things with my body.

To have a better 6 pack than the boys

I don't want to be average.

This is my last time doing it for the first time.

Because I am committed.

I feel the prettiest and strongest after a long, hard workout.

Because why the hell no?

Look good! Feel good!

So no one can tell me I'm not dedicated.

Today is my tomorrow. It's up to me to shape it, to take control and seize every opportunity. The power is in the choices I make each day. I eat well, I live well, I shape me.

Sacrifice is giving up on something good for something better.

We cannot do everything at once but we can do something at once.

Push yourself. you're not going to get results by just talking about your need to workout and be healthy. You actually have to get off your butt and do it.

Expect the best, be prepared for the worst. Fuck what others think and do your own thing.

The only thing standing between you and your goal is the bullshit story you keep telling yourself as to why you can't achieve it.

Find a way to make one.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

New New New

So I am thinking that I want to do something new to my hair again. I was thinking about something like this...


I thought this was super cute when I saw it. I asked around and everyone seems to like it. So I thinking it's a go. I just have to find the cheapest place to do it. A friend of mine who is almost finished with her training at the Paul Mitchell school said it would be like $100. That's not bad. I have a few other places out there I have asked that I am waiting to hear back from.

On bigger news, I am proud to announce....


Wyatt Damon Nikolakakis
Born: May 19, 2012
3:57am
6 lbs. 12 oz.
19 inches long.

He is just so adorable. His name was going to be Bentley (which I thought was and still is so much cuter than Wyatt) but his father threw a bitch fit. Even though he wasn't even there to help her pick out a name he went home to sleep. But whatever. I love him still. He is adorable.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Oh Fuck Do I Need To Vent

So a friend of my have birth to a beautiful baby boy this morning. The asshole of a dad stayed for the birthday and long enough to find out he was the father and then he left to go home and sleep. She waited around for a bit to decide on a name but he never came back. So she decided on the name Bentley Damon Nikolkakis. I posted on my Facebook page "Happy Birth Day Baby Bentley. Auntie can't wait to meet you." He decided to comment that it's only baby nikolakakis. His son's name is NOT Bentley.

Dude.. What the fuck? Don't jump down my throat because you don't like the name. I posted the name I was told. Fuck you asshole. I like the name and so does everyone else. So go fuck yourself.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Sorry For Being MIA

Sorry blog followers. I haven't been in the mood to blog lately. Some things have happened that have really brought me down to a place I didn't want to be. Not having a job and not being able to get one has been really on my mind lately. I hate not doing anything and sitting on my ass all day. But I thought things were starting to look up when Mills College was interested in having me attend their school. So I sent them everything they needed. Transcripts. Teacher Recommendations. Application. Financial Aid forms. Things were looking really good. I thought for sure I was going to get in because they came after me and not me going after them. Boy was I wrong. They denied my application but couldn't give me a straight reason. I am still a little devastated. I thought my life was finally starting to get on track but I can see that's not going to happen any time soon. I try to get my mind off of it, but it always seems to come back into my mind. What do I have to do to get my life going the right direction? Most of my fellow classmates from high school are all graduating College and some are even already in Master's Programs and I am still paddling around in Community College. It's like a slap in the face. Where did my life start going in the wrong direction? Was I still in high school? Before that? Recently? I just don't know.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Motivation To Losing 26 lbs Week 1

So I am posting 7 motivational quotes a week to keep me going. I am trying to eat healthier, but everyone who knows me knows I like food. It's going to take time and determination but I think I am ready for it. I have had a kick in the butt my a picture that was posted of someone close to me who used to be a bit on the larger side and posted a picture of herself in a bikini and it got me to think that used to be me and it will be me again. LORD please give me the strength to keep going.



"It takes 4 weeks for you to see your body changing. It takes 8 weeks for family and friends and it takes 12 weeks for the rest of the world. KEEP GOING!"

"One pound at a time!"

"Girls who are naturally skinny are lucky but the girls who have had to fight to be skinny are strong."

"Skinny is not sexy. Healthy is."

"Running is cheaper than therapy."

"Don't throw away all of yesterdays progress today."

"Train insane or remain the same."