Sorry For Being MIA

Sorry blog followers. I haven't been in the mood to blog lately. Some things have happened that have really brought me down to a place I didn't want to be. Not having a job and not being able to get one has been really on my mind lately. I hate not doing anything and sitting on my ass all day. But I thought things were starting to look up when Mills College was interested in having me attend their school. So I sent them everything they needed. Transcripts. Teacher Recommendations. Application. Financial Aid forms. Things were looking really good. I thought for sure I was going to get in because they came after me and not me going after them. Boy was I wrong. They denied my application but couldn't give me a straight reason. I am still a little devastated. I thought my life was finally starting to get on track but I can see that's not going to happen any time soon. I try to get my mind off of it, but it always seems to come back into my mind. What do I have to do to get my life going the right direction? Most of my fellow classmates from high school are all graduating College and some are even already in Master's Programs and I am still paddling around in Community College. It's like a slap in the face. Where did my life start going in the wrong direction? Was I still in high school? Before that? Recently? I just don't know.