I Know I've Blogged About This Before...

But I've never really posted my opinion about it.

Joe Paterno. Penn State coach for 40+ years. Did everything great for that team. They say he is to blame for the Jerry Sandusky case going on to as many victims as it did. I do not believe so. He followed the book and told his superior about what he was told. In any employee handbook, when you tell someone who is higher than you on the hierarchy, it is out of your hands. He did what was called of him. You fire him. You take down his statue. Take his name from just about anything. You took his will to live. He died less than 2 months after you fired him for something you taught him to do. Dear god. I have a good feeling that even if he keep telling more and more people, he could of been killed by someone for putting their name out there or still would of been fired because he made Penn State a sour word in people's mouth. Watching this interview with the Author of Paterno's book "Paterno" is making me feel so bad for JoePa. I will be going to find this book and read it. I would love to know JoePa's side of things and not just what was told to us.

First Week Of School

Well the first week of school is coming to a close. My class isn't all that bad. It's actually kind of fun. Human Sexualities. The teacher is hilarious. The only bad thing is that I have to pop out $180 for the book and $26 for a clicker. I am going to be broke. Lol. I just want to be finished with school like right now. It better be worth it. I still need to set up an appointment with a councilor to see just what is left. I also need to make a Dr's appointment to get my blood pressure checked and to get my pills refilled. I need to get my car smogged and then my car registration paid.  I also have a couple of credit card bills to pay. Holy crap I am going to be broke.

Well... Um....

Today is the first day of the fall semester. Lets see how long it takes me to finish school. It will probably take forever but I guess it needs to be done so I can get people off my back.

School....

I think this is why I have discouraged school so much in the past is because of the cost. One of my books for my Psychology class alone is $180. That just one book of 2. That's just one class of 3 I hope to be in by the beginning of the semester. I cannot believe how much I am going to be spending in books alone. I should of just gone away to school and finished it right out of high school. I would of been done and been a teacher by now. I wouldn't be complaining of money or anything like that. I guess the phrase is true. The choices you make when you are younger really do shape your future. I am terrified to meet with a councilor to find out what classes I need to get my AA and then I need to go on and get my BS. I really don't know what to do anymore. I went through this once already going to school and I ended up giving up for a while and being very depressed. I don't want that shit again. I can't take it. 

Week 2

Well... I just started my second week of workouts. I have been taking Hydroxycut since last Wednesday. So almost a week on that front. I have been walking/jogging almost every day. I am trying to keep it up. If I don't do it in the 100 degree summer valley heat, I try to get out with Chris when he gets home at about 11 at night. It's cooler and it's always nice to have someone with you to motivate you. My knee is starting to feel the affect, but I still push myself. I wish I would of started this sooner because then I wouldn't be so embarrassed to show up to my party on Saturday in a bikini. I am really determined to keep this up. I want to go back to a healthy lifestyle. I want to be sexy again. I want to be able to put on Lingerie and not be so upset when I look at myself in the mirror. I think it really got me when I put on the last piece on Lingerie that was bought for me and it looked like I had a baby bump. It was not cute. Chris says he loves me just the way I am, and it's great to have someone who doesn't care what you look like, but I think I will be happier with myself when I look like what I want to look like. I refuse to get on a scale right now. I want to keep this up for at least a month before I weigh myself again. I weighed myself when I first started and I was 160 lbs. This is the heaviest I have been in my entire life. Not where I want to be.

Totally Missing...

My Bella Bug and her baby brother. Even though I have never met Wyatt, I still love him to pieces. But my BellaBug will always hold a special place in my heart.

She has turned into a little human. I am not ready for her to grow up.

 He is just so adorable!! I cannot wait to meet him!

I miss these two to pieces!!! TT Jess loves you guys!

Working Out Post

So I have gotten back into working out. Everyday. Been taking my hydroxycut everyday. Let's see how long it takes for it to take to start showing. Any bets? Takers?

Happy 1 Year Anniversary

Today marks the 1 year anniversary that Chris asked me to be his girlfriend. We differ on this subject because things were going down way before then, but that's when he made it official. Why the hell did I stick around this long. Who knows! Te he he. I love him though so I guess that's all that matters.