Always Love

Wow. I swear I haven't been abandoning my blog. I have just been so busy with other things. I am so sorry. I'm sure none of you want to read my blog anyways. It's not that interesting. But I still blog. Soooo... let's see what's new in the world of Jessica!

I am still jobless. I have applied just about everywhere and still nothing. Macy's wanted me to schedule an interview for the holiday season, but when I go to the website to schedule the interview, there aren't any open spots, but to check back daily to see if any become available. What kind of stupid bullshit is that? I need a job and right about now I will take just about anything that will come my way. I have actually thought about moving back up the bay cause it will probably be easier to get a job but I know when I am up there, I would not be happy. Why can't people hire me? What do I have to do to stand out from the rest?

I have caught yet another cold/flu. I have been drinking plenty of fluids and momma has been taking care of me. She bought me a giant box of medicine and pumping me full of zinc. I have never been sick this many times in one year. I am always tired, running a fever, achy body. Go Away.

Right now there is a bunch of drama with some friends. All I want to say to them is please leave me out of it. I am a mutual friend of the both of you and one more than the other one, I do not need to read about you bashing the other. You need to realize that even though I am your friend, I don't want to read you talking shit about my other friend. But I will say, we told you the exact same thing last week, not in such a harsh way, but you chose to blow it off. It's out of my hands now. Sorry. But please stop with the shit talking.

Thanksgiving has come and gone and now Christmas is upon us. Which means that 2011 is almost over. I swear it's like it just started. Where did the year go. It's been a year with many ups and downs but that's life. Christmas is going to be tight this year. All my extra money is going towards bills. Which sucks because we all know I give some kick ass Christmas gifts.

As of tomorrow, I have 2 credit cards to pay off. One should be paid off by the beginning of January and then I am only down to 1. Thank god. I hate being broke and in debt. I need to start re-establishing my credit. I want to buy a new car and a house one day. I guess in some ways I am just like my dad. He screwed up his credit when he was my age, and now he has a better credit score than 96% of the United States.

So Ready

I am so ready for the Holidays. Thanksgiving is 8 days away. I cannot wait to stuff my face with good food. Then it's the countdown to Christmas. All I want for Christmas is a JOB!!! Anyone got any ideas? I need one NOW!!!! Damn it!

Feels Good

It feels so good to finally have my credit cards paid off. I cannot wait for them all to be done. 1 down. 2 to go. Victoria's Secret is paid off and all that's left is Macy's and Bank of America. Oh yeah. Go me.

I Know I Do This Every Year Before The New Year

And it always seems to change. I guess some people really just don't belong in my life. This is the post where I thank the people who are in my life for being here and tell the people who fucked me over yet again to kiss my ass.

I don't even know where to being for this year. So many people have come and gone into my life. I think this year I might start with the good-byes and end with the people who I love.

Abigail: Us not being friends anymore, really doesn't surprise me. It was only a matter of time before you turned out to be just like your sister. I thought you were the good one, but yet you fooled me again. 17 years I have known you and they really have been filled with a lot of drama but like I always do, I looked past it all when I should of looked it right in the face and saw it for what it really was, a friendship that was doomed from the beginning. These last few months without you in it have made me see that life without the Gonderman/Rorstrand/Richard clan is so much more simpler.

Kelly: You are the one that surprised me the most. I never thought you would throw our friendship away over a stupid girl who did or did not give you a piece of ass. It was stupid and pointless and I think somewhere deep down you know that but you know there is no way for me to forgive you. I thought you were going to be someone who would stick by me through thick and thin, but I guess I was wrong. I really don't even know what to say to you about it. I really could care less if you fell off the planet. You successfully hurt me, just like a lot of other people in my life have. And to make me laugh the girl you threw away our friendship for basically told you to kick rocks. Ha. How does it feel.

I would put my 2 ex's but I don't even think they are blog worthy any more. Not even going to waste my time writing about them, and there are a few other people I would love to blog about but I am not giving them the satisfaction of writing about them.

Now on to the people who have made my life this past year some great.

Amy: I know we have a few bouts this year but I am so glad that we got passed them. You have been there for me through a lot and I am so glad that I have someone like you to count on when things get rough. Thank you so much for letting me be part of your beautiful wedding, even more as your maid of honor. You and Andrew deserve happiness and I could not think of 2 people I would like to be happy more than the two of you.

Christopher: Where do I start with you. I guess I can thank you for showing me that not all guys are the same and that there are some guys out there, that no matter how old they are, know how a girlfriend should be treated. Thank you for never letting me run away when I was angry or frustrated with you because I knew if I left, I wouldn't of some back and I would of missed out on a lot of good memories with you. Thank you for taking all my crap that I have dealt out. I know it hasn't been easy. I love you a whole lot and I know you know that.

Big Momma: Getting to know you has been some of the funnest times I have ever had. You always get me to laugh when I am ready to kill a bitch. You are always there when I need someone to talk too. You are like the mom I never had. We have done some crazy things in the past few months but they have all been worth it. From late night Walmart trips for a "Bag of Chips" or spending a week making shirts for a freaking high school football game. We are some crazy people.


I know there are way more people to add to this list but those are really the only ones I want to write about.

Worse Night Ever

Last night was the worst night ever. My back hurt so bad, I couldn't move. My stomach was in knots so bad that I felt that I was going to puke. My head was pounding so bad that I thought my head was going to explode and my heart rate was at 120 bpm when it should be around 65 when you are resting. I have no energy and I don't think I am going to be moving from bed today. I am going to stay put and watch some One Tree Hill.

3 Months

Chris and I have been together 3 months yesterday. Its been a great 3 months but we still have a lot of learn about each other and learn not to intentionally get on each others nerves. Still testing the waters with each other. It should pass soon. If it doesn't, I think we might have an issue. Let's see how the next 3 months go...

Flashbacks

Damn It's Been A While

It's been a while since I have blogged. I don't know what to blog about right now.

Give me a minute to think....


I am so tired of filling out applications for jobs and not hearing back. This shit is ridiculous. It starts to get to you after a while. I need a job to be pulled out of my ass. I need to quit sitting around and doing nothing. I will start to go stir crazy.