I don't know how many of these I have posted over my entire blogging career but as I am approaching my 30th birthday in less than 30 days and I just happened to catch myself in the mirror last night after my shower, I am disgusted with what I saw. I refuse to step on a scale beaus I know it's just going to make me even more angry than I already am. 10 years ago I was nice and skinny. I weighted about 115lbs, fit into a size 5 jeans, and didn't care what I looked like.
Now it's consumes my life. I am the only one who can change that. I need that motivation in my life. Why can't Merced offer classes for this kind of stuff. Not just open session classes that anyone can go to. I had so much motivation when I was taking weight training classes.
I hate going to the gym. I feel like I am being judged. I guess that's the problem you get when you go to In Shape. All those assholes are judgmental pieces of shit.
Ok I should probably wrap up this short post because even typing this is making me angry.
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