School

Anyone that says College is easy is a bullshit liar. 

This shit is not easy. It's stressful and it flairs up my anxiety like you wouldn't believe. 

It's so bad I don't feel like I am enjoying it at all. 

First 2 Weeks Are Over

I cannot believe I have officially finished my first 2 weeks of school. Really it's more like a week and a half because the first week of school was only 3 days long but they call it a week so I call it a week.

It definitely isn't Community College or JC.  It's so fast paced. You better keep up. You fall behind that's on you. No help trying to get caught up. Damn. I makes me wish I was still at JC sometimes. Nah I'm ok off of that.


There is just a lot of work. A lot of reading and a lot of homework. They weren't kidding when they said to go to office hours. That's about the only time you can talk to the teacher one on one. The end the class and they are out the door faster than you are. It's hilarious.

It is a change that's for sure.

You Know What....

I think I am going to keep blogging on this blog.

I am not going to let people keep me from my passion. I tried having another blog but I always come back to this one.

It's where my heart and soul is.

I hope you enjoy reading this. Too bad you won't have anything to twist around like you used too.

Welcome to my life again folks. It's good to be back!

A Bit Overwhelmed

I feel like I am drowning in homework these days. Between speeches, and chapters beyond chapters to read, maps to create, videos to watch, workouts to do.... I feel like I do nothing else. I know it's probably a bit embellished but that's what it feels like. It's almost over... thank god.


BTW!
I got my second acceptance. Well my first acceptance without a contingency attacked. Thanks Sonoma State. You will be taken into great consideration!

Good Day

I feel like I've had a good day today. Woke up for the first time in forever without the urge to rip people's head off. It might be because a certain someone is living under the same roof anymore. Her stuff still is but we rarely see her anymore. I'm not arguing. The bathroom has stayed clean. The kitchen was still clean when I got up. It was nice.

I didn't get a lot of sleep last night buy I woke up feeling somewhat refreshed. I cleaned up the bedroom, made the bed for the first time in weeks. Even got the rest of the weeks blog post scheduled for my beauty blog.

Getting ready for class I was actually excited to go and workout. I give Lucy huge credit for that. I purchased her ''21 days to love your body" book. I think that's what it's called. Whatever it is it's made me feel better about myself just with reading the first couple of pages. I encourage anyone to check out Lucy. You can find her on instagram and twitter.

Well it's off to listen to some upbeat music and get ready to sweat my ass off.

Hollywood Medium with Tyler Henry

Ok. So I was just flipping through the channels because there is seriously nothing on TV during the day. I came across Hollywood Medium with Tyler Henry. I figured it was just going to be background noise. I got freaking pulled in real quick.

I am not the type of person that believes in spiritual beings. I've never thought there were spirits around.

Today all that changed.

For one hour I sat in complete amazement of someone so young, who knew things about people. Things that these people had never told anyone before.

If I could get Tyler Henry to come to my house and Medium me I would die.

2016 Promise

I'm making a promise to myself that 2016 I will do my best to not let people get to me. I will try to not post as many negative post and I have been these last few months. I hate being this person who makes a big deal over how people act. It's not me. I am my own person. It's time for me to take back my own life.

Fuck This Shit

Seriously? Your husband is home. You spend every day with him, like you should. You stay with him every night. Great. But he is home now. Come get your fucking shit out of this damn house. Quit coming over here to use the shower and to eat because they don't feed you enough. I'm almost certain they make enough food just not for your fucking cow ass. Fucking get out of here. Get lost. We are all done with our shit.

I Don't Care Anymore

I honestly don't care anymore if people read what I write about on here. For the last 4 1/2 years I have kept to myself the way I feel about where I am living and not posting in on my blog but you know what, I don't care anymore. If you don't like what I have to say then fuck off.

I am so sick and tired of being fucking treated like a god damn maid who doesn't fucking matter. You leave your fucking messes around and not clean them up because you know eventually I will get sick and tired of walking over everything or not having a clean dish to use and I will clean up. Well not anymore. I will fucking continue to walk over your shit. I am not your god damn maid. If you want me to be one you better fucking pay me like one.

You know I am in school full time. You know that when I am not in classes I am mostly like doing homework. What do you do when I am doing that? You have the TV up to 60 so you can ignore your child(I'm not even going there on that one), or you are screaming and talking loud, or you are just being down right rude. Yet when you are doing something that you need some quiet time for you want the entire fucking house quiet. Well guess what, not anymore. I will not be giving you respect if you refuse to give me the same respect. Fuck that.

Mostly everyone in this house has fucking anger issues. You take something so minor and turn it into a world catastrophe. Why the fuck for? Do you think any really cares how you feel when you could give two shits on how they feel? Guess what, we don't. It's really sad when 5 of your own children would rather be thousands of miles away from then be near you. You wonder why family doesn't come visit anymore. Because you fucking treat them like shit.

I'm saying this now, when I get my degree and I move I will not be speaking to any of you for a while. I need to get the fuck away from your total and utter bull shit of a fucking life. I feel really bad for Nicholas because he doesn't know any better. But they way he is left to run this house, don't be surprised when he turns into the next high school shooter because you never tell him no and let him get away with everything.

I am so fucking done with all this shit. I really needed to win that lottery last week because it would of been the last time any of these fucking people heard from me.

Poof!