Fucking Bullshit

Oh my god. I thought I was almost 24 years old. You want me to pay rent but then I can't do what I want? That's so fucking stupid. If I pay rent I should get to do what I want too with my room that I pay for. If I want to have a boy over to sleep in my room, I should be able too. No questions asked. I should be able to come and go as I please but fucking no. This is stupid. Why should I pay rent for no privacy. I can go somewhere else and pay rent and get to do what I want. I had more freedom when I was in high school then I do now that I am an adult. Even my grandma is turning against me. This is crap. What is the point of living here? I cant do what I want, when I want. I cant go anywhere without getting yelled at about anything. I need to get the fuck out of here. The worse part about all this, is I called Chris and vented to him about this. He has enough going on his life to deal with my shit. Some girlfriend I am. I need to learn not to vent to other people and just stick to venting on my blog. It doesn't talk back and doesn't care what I say.


Oh and to top it all off. My birthday is 10 days away. I am still planning my camping trip. That is all screwed up. People are inviting themselves to stay longer than they really can because we have more people coming up on Friday that are going to take then tent spot because we can only have 3 tents per site. I told them they can only stay until Friday and then they have to leave or get their own site. I wonder how well that will go over or even if they will respond. The thing I worry about is if they don't come or don't stay for the weekend, one of the people coming up on Friday won't come because they aren't going to be there. Why does this always happen to me and my plans for my birthday? I am just going to stop caring about my birthday all together. What's the point? It doesn't seem like anyone else cares about it. Why should I?