I Wonder Where I Am At

At the beginning of the year I made a list of 20 things I was going to do by years end. Well since it is July 31st, well over half way through, I thought I would update to see if I am even attempted any of them.



1. Free myself from negative people. (For the most part I guess I have)
2. Let go of those who are already gone. (Still trying to work on that)
3. Give people I don't know a fair chance. (I think I've done a good job at this one)
4. Show everyone kindness and respect. (Yeah... um... no! You don't respect me, I don't respect you)
5. Encourage others and cheer for them. (........)
6. Accept people just the way they are. (Yes I have done this. Probably too much)
7. Be my imperfectly perfect self. (Well of course. Who else would I want to be)
8. Forgive people and move forward. (Some people you can never forgive)
9. Do little things every day for others. (I tried that, fuck that shit)
10. Always be loyal. (From day one....)
11. Stay in better touch with people who matter to me. (I wish I was better at it, but I'm working on it)
12. Keep my promises and tell the truth. (Some things you just cannot keep)
13. Give what I want to receive. (I've tried... people are just down right stupid)
14. Say what I mean and mean what I say. (Yup! True down to the core)
15. Allow others to make their own decisions. (I've given up putting in my input with some people.)
16. Take a little less, and listen more. (Nope! I love to talk)
17. Leave petty arguments alone. (I can say that I have stopped a lot of petty fights)
18. Pay attention to my relationship with myself. (I wish my relationship with myself was better.)
19. Pay attention to who my real friends are. (Yup. I hold them near and dear to my heart)
20. Ignore nonconstructive, hurtful commentary. (Fuck that shit. It still gets to me)

My Emotional Rollarcoaster...

...should be ending today. Lea Michele tweeted today. It broke my heart into little pieces at first, but then I thought to myself that if she can be strong than I know I can. Cory's passing will never effect me that way it has effected her. Her entire world came crashing down in a matter of seconds. Her heart and soul, the love of her life was gone forever. It hurts to even think of that kind of pain. But in Lea's words to Ryan Murphy... THE SHOW MUST GO ON! She is right. It's time to move forward. Cory will always be with every single member of Glee and with the millions of fans that have grown to love him over the years. We will never forget him. Even though we may shed a tear when someone talks about him, we will all get to a time that when we here "Cory Monteith" or "Finn Hudson" or even "Finchel" that we will smile and just remember that he is in a better place where nothing can hurt him anymore.

Fall Semester 2013

So I registered for my Fall classes today. I got Biology, English, and Spanish. It's going to be one hell of a semester. I can tell you that. I'm knuckling down and ready to move on up to the big time college! 

I Feel Like Blogging At 3am

So today has been an eye opener for me. I have realized today that after watching countless episodes of Glee season 1 that its time to let go. It's time to let go of the fact that Cory is gone, but I will never let go of him in my heart. I know I've said this countless times before and I will say it again. He changed my world and he never even knew it! He changed so many lives for the better. I just wish we could all tell him so it would make him want to get sober enough not to keep going back to drugs. As Lea Michele put it... The show must go on! And go on it shall.

We love you Cory! You will forever be in our hearts and as long as we live we will always ship Finchel! 

Keep Holding On Lyrics

Listening to this song makes me miss Cory Monteith more than I have in a week and a half but it also makes me stronger. Just read the lyrics and you will understand! 

You're not alone 
Together we stand 
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand 
When it gets cold 
And it feels like the end 
There's no place to go 
You know I won't give in 
No I won't give in 

Keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through 
Just stay strong 
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you 
There's nothing you could say 
Nothing you could do 
There's no other way when it comes to the truth 
So keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through 

So far away 
I wish you were here 
Before it's too late, this could all disappear 
Before the doors close 
And it comes to an end 
With you by my side I will fight and defend 
I'll fight and defend 
Yeah, yeah 

Keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through 
Just stay strong 
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you 
There's nothing you could say 
Nothing you could do 
There's no other way when it comes to the truth 
So keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through 

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe 
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny 
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly 
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

La da da da 
La da da da 
La da da da da da da da da 

Keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through 
Just stay strong 
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you 
There's nothing you could say 
Nothing you could do 
There's no other way when it comes to the truth 
So keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through 

Keep holding on 
Keep holding on 

There's nothing you could say 
Nothing you could do 
There's no other way when it comes to the truth 
So keep holding on 
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through!

Another Historical Day!!

The Duke and Dutchess of Cambridge have welcomed a Baby Boy!!!! It's so exciting!!!

Updated: they have named the royal baby!!!

HIS ROYAL HIGHNESS PRINCE GEORGE ALEXANDER LOUIS OF CAMBRIDGE! 

1 Week

Tomorrow will be 1 week since the passing of our beloved Cory Monteith. A lot has happened this week. The autopsy and toxicology report found alcohol and heroin in his system. There have been reports that he has already been cremated. Haven't heard of any memorial or funeral for family, but I know there is a huge one tonight in Los Angeles. Some Glee cast members have released statements and returned to twitter, but many, including his beautiful girlfriend Lea Michele, have remained silent. Some of the cast members also met with writing and producers yesterday and have decided to postpone filming until mid August and have also pushed the Premire date a week from the 18 to the 26. I have time to work myself up to watching it. As each day comes and goes, it gets a little easier. Somedays I can listen to Glee music and somedays all I want to is cry. I know a lot of people are talking about how I've gone way to far with this. I never met him. Blah. Blah. But I'm invested in him. In his character. In his emotions and his love. His voice will always be on my mind. We love him til they day we die. He is flying with the angels now and gracing god with his beautiful voice.