Wow

It has been forever since I have updated my blog. I am currently listening to a 1:34 minute video for my History class and I thought now would be as good of time as ever to update my blog.

I had a huge revelation this morning. As this spring semester is coming to a close in I think about 5 weeks or so I will have 2 semesters left at the Junior College system. 10 weeks in the summer for Math 90 and 16 weeks in the fall for Math 101 and then I am done. I will begin to apply to  transfer schools in the fall. Its such a surreal feeling. I never thought I would get this far. It's been 10 years since I graduated high school. I started to JC system 10 years ago. It's been a hell of a long road with lots that has happened, procrastination being a key factor in what has taken me so long. I'm sure when I finish my last semester of JC I will probably cry because I can say that I am done with the JC system and I don't have to see it every day like I have for many many years.

I guess that's all I really have to say. There really isn't a whole lot going on. Still trying to lose weight though. Slowly but surely I will get there. It will just take a while. I know it will.

Yes I Know

I know my cousin and I have been through some hard times but I am so glad I have her to vent too. I refuse to vent to anyone down here because everyone down here is bound to take the oppositions side. I'm over the high school shit that people live for down here. I've been out of high school 10 years and I don't plan on going back. I really wish people would grow the fuck up already. I really do. I wish everyone could be a grow up when they are the age of 25 and above. Yup. That is all. I'm done now.

Not So Good January

So January wasn't out to that great of a start and it never really got better. Started out New Years with a not so big bang, which is fine. That I didn't mind at all. Slowly started getting ready for school to start and trying to get some stuff in order to transfer, which has yet to be done because Marsha and I can't seem to sync our schedules and find a good time to meet. Either I have something going on or she is out of the office or sick. It's going to have to get done soon because I believe I can apply in the fall. School started and that was fine. My classes aren't really all that bad. Math, History and Yoga. Math is the only class I'm worried about. The other two classes are just fill in classes. I was all set to start my happiness project this month but as we can tell it didn't go very well. I'm just so over January and truthfully over 2015 and it just started. Ugh.

First Week Of Spring Semester

Well the first week of Spring Semester is officially over. It's been a crazy week with a crap ton of homework already. Yoga will be my easiest class for sure, but Math and the online History class I am taking is going to be the death of me. My History teacher thinks we have no other classes that we are taking and that we have all the time in the world. Yeah ok. Some of us want to get out of the JC system not stay it in any longer. This lady is crazy. I'm just saying. Math is going to be interesting I can say that. So far I remember a lot from previous semesters of Math. So far things are ok but I'm sure that will change when we get a little farther into the semester. She allows us to use a calculator, hopefully on the quizzes, that would be nice. If we can I will have no problem in this class. We all know I hate math.

In other news...

Christina has officially moved back to Texas. So we don't have to deal with her shit anymore. The house is cleaner than I have seen it in almost a year. The bathroom is still clean, the kitchen is still clean, it's so nice. Josh has decided that he is joining the Marines. So in a few months he will be gone. Now if Chris and I can just get out on our own then I wouldn't have to deal with this shit anymore.

Happiness Project

For 2015 my only resolution is to better myself, whatever ways possible. I decided not to make a list a mile long of things I will probably never commit to. This way it's easy and anything I do will better myself. I am starting out with creating my own Happiness project. I have a new objective every month to try and better myself with. I just finished reading "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin. This book has been the most eye opening book i've ever read. She has inspired me to really want to change a lot about myself emotionally and mentally, not that much psychically because that's not what this is about. It's not about how you look it's about how you feel about yourself. I've kind of used her happiness project as my outline with doing almost the exact same resolutions during the months, but how I achieve them might be a little bit different. I was amazing that there was someone else out there that was going through some of the same stuff that I was going through or even just felt like on a day to day basis. Thank you Gretchen Rubin for writing this book and speaking to millions of reading all across the world, including myself.

I have broken down the months into categories. I only have gotten through May but I'm sure as the months go on I will find things that I need to work on to make myself happier.

January: All About Energy
     I will be spending all of January trying to give myself more energy. Starting to take a multi vitamin again, reading more, less TV, more walking and exercising, healthier eating and such things of that nature.

February: What I Love About Your Love
    February is all about really showing the people who I love dearly that I do love them. I need to better relationships with them such as spending more one on one time with them and just being there for them like they have been there for me for so many years.

March: The Sky's The Limit
     March is when I really sit down and figure out what I want to do with my education. Do I want to pursue more than one degree? Do I want to do a multi subject credentialed teacher? Basically about my future.

April: Lighten The Mood
    This month is probably the most important for me. I really need to learn how to not let the little things get under my skin. To brush off the little things and really focus on what matters. I need to find different way to displace my angry or disappointment instead of yelling or getting angry for things that really don't need to be a big deal.

May: You Only Get One Mind
    This month I want to really focus on keeping my mind at ease. Mostly through meditation and yoga. I used to be a very calm and laid back person, but now I am all worked up and tense and having a lot of stress. Stress is not good for anyone. I really want to get rid of it.


This blog is a to be continued post......

Totally Gave Up

Totally gave up on blog-a-day for December. My final grades are in though for the semester. I got a C in both classes. A little bummed about Biology because I thought I did way better than that but my Spanish.. hell I will take it. Thank god I passed. That is all that matters!!!! I have been keeping up on my photo-a-day on Instagram and also on my new beauty blog. You can follow that HERE!

My Letter to Dean McDermott

I have only done this a few times on my blog but after watching this season of True Tori I think this is needed. 

To Dean:

     Let's me start off by saying that I absolutely love you. I can't wait to purchase your cookbook. Ok now to what I want to say... Stop beating yourself up over the mistakes you've made!! We have all made mistakes. I feel bad for you because you are in the spotlight. No one is perfect and everyone needs to understand that. All these people who are bashing you have made mistakes and have messed up at some point. You have something a lot of people don't have. You have an amazing support system that is behind you 100%. Tori has stuck by you when she could of just left and left you alone but she loves you true and whole-heartedly. Also you are an inspiration to your kids even if you don't know it yet. Some day they will read all about this and truely understand what happened but then they can look up and see that through all the adversity and all the drama their parents sruck it out and made it through it all. That shows them not to give up on something they really love. If they love someone, no matter what, always be there for them. Dean you are incredibly strong but I know it's hard. When you are having a bad day just look at your kids, your beautiful wife and fans like myself who have stuck behind you because we have all made mistakes as well. WE LOVE YOU!!

Jessica Thomson