Spring Semester 2013

Well this is the first semester ever that I have gotten all the classes I wanted. Thank god. I am actually taking more classes then the counselor and I decided on for my Ed plan. If I keep this up I will be graduating sooner that I thought. That would make me happier than a kid in a candy store.

Shit. Fuck. Damn it!

Just realized that Christmas is exactly 1 month away. Still have a lot of stuff to get and wrapping paper and boxes and tissue paper. God the holiday season sucks. I always lose my hair. Haha.

It's That Time Again

Is that's time again. The holidays are here. Guess its time to start writing the annual list of how my resolutions went and make the next years predictions. I don't quite remember what I wrote last year. I can only imagine its like years past. Accomplish only a few things but a few are better than none. Lets hope the holidays stay good to be. Thanskgiving was a little nuts.

I Need To Get This Off My Chest

It has been bugginge for quite some time and I figured if I blogged about it, it might make me feel better.

So Chris' brother Josh got a puppy from a friend at school. He was told if he brings him home he would have to take care of it. Everything was fine, up until a few weeks ago when Josh started leaving him outside. Now I told him not to put the puppy outside at night because 1) he doesn't have any shots and 2) there are many different animals that pass through the yard at night and could bite humor what not and pass on their diseases. He didn't listen, of course. Then Chris told him he needed to pick up the plants from the fair he grew because the puppy would start eating them and get sick. Did he listen? Nope. Sure enough the puppy got sick. So sick he didn't eat for 5 days and was looking like one of those dogs on the super sad "send me money" commercials. I said he needed to go to the vet. Again no one listened. Chris and I gave him some of Chewy's medicine and he started to get better. Josh put him outside again after we told him to leave him in the garage until
the backyard got cleaned up. True Joshua fashion. He got sick again. Again we gave him more of Chewy's meds and he got better. So last night Josh was feeding the dog and he was mixing the puppy's dry food with raw eggs. Bad idea. But I don't know what I am talking about. Oh well, if the dog dies, I can say I tried. Oh and this morning to go out to the garage and he has started chewing on everything and started ripping up a pillow and there is pillow fuzz everywhere. I can only imagine how much of the fuzz he ate. Ugh. In so over this. This poor dog! I wish he had a better home.

So Very True

When something tries to come in and disrupt the life you have, it always makes you love what you have that much more. ♥

Ask Why And You Shall Receive

So I just had a friend ask me why I am trying so hard to lose weight. She says I look beautiful just the way I am. I thanked her and ended the conversation at that but I think I just found the perfect quote to sum up why I am doing what I am doing.

"To Not Be Ashamed Of My Body"


I want to be comfortable looking at myself in the mirror. I want to like the way I look. I do not want to be ashamed of my body.

I Just Couldn't Stay Away

There has been way too much that has happened over the last month for me to stay away for any longer than I already have. I basically caved in last night when certain events happened on Facebook by me stating my opinion that I knew it would only be a matter of time before I came back to get all this shit out of my head because we all know what will happen if I don't. I become one really pissed off, cranky person. Thank the lord none of you really have to see this first hand, but for poor Christopher, he isn't so lucky. 

So where to begin...

Well I know I posted about being back in school. 1 class this semester. But let me tell you this is by far one of the funnest classes I have ever taken in my life. She makes it fun and very interactive. I have met some really awesome people in this class. We seem to stick together for everything. When we have to partner up, we don't even have to move or worry about anything because we all know who we are going to be partnered with. I say everyone should take Human Sexualities. If you can, come take it down here at Modesto Junior College(MJC) with Suzie Corman. Bitch is hilarious. I did find out that I have my final day of completion at MJC. 795 days away. December 20th 2014. I know it seems like a hell of a long time but it's because I procrastinated when I first started college that now it's kicking me in the ass. On top of that I have 2 years at a University and then another year for my credentials. I swear I am never going to finish school. Someone want to just do all the work for me? That would be nice. 

Oh yeah... I moved back in with Christopher. It was just easier because I watch the baby. I don't watch him as much anymore with John Paul home with back issues but still I am here when I am needed. Plus I think it was better for me because I just didn't fit in with everything going on over at Big Mommas. I was not comfortable with people coming and going at all hours. There was a lot of stuff going on over there that I thought I would be ok with but it ended up just getting under my skin. Oh well. Live and learn right. I had even thought about moving back home but that was not what I wanted to do and plus my life is down here now, not there. 

I have still been looking for a job. I have a lead for next week. An interview with Macy's. It's only for seasonal help. It's better than nothing right? A lot of people I know that were hired on as seasonal help ended up being brought on after the holidays to become full-time help. That would be even better, but I am not going to think that far ahead. One day at a time. Still looking for something more permanent. Going on 15 months of not having a job. I am going crazy doing nothing. Most of you know that I can only do nothing for so long. 

Ok so on to the events of last night....

Baseball season is starting to close. We are currently viewing the NLCS and the ALCS. The NLCS is the San Francisco Giants vs. St. Louis Cardinals. There was a play last night when Matt Holliday(STL) was sliding into second base and tried to break up the double play. He was going into for the slide. To me, and to a bunch of people I have talked to about this, saw that Holliday's toe of his shoe got stuck in the dirt which prevented him from entering a full slide. He ended up, unintentionally, taking out Marco Scutaro(SF). He ended up hurting his hip. All the Giants fans on my page began to talk mad shit saying that Holliday was a dirty player, that he intentionally hurt Scutaro, blah blah blah. I made a post last night, as follows:

                       

So I got to see the slide to second that Matt Holliday had and NO GIANTS FANS, it does not look like he intentionally did it. If you look closely his foot got caught on the dirt which prevented him from entering a full slide. Go ahead jump all on my ass, you all are going to do it. But I don't give a fuck. Take someone else's opinion into account for once.

I knew that people would jump my ass, hints the reason why I said what I said. A debate went back and forth and ended with some of us agreed to disagree. Until an ex of mine, who is still a friend decided to have this conversation with me, as follows:

Jessica, you may not want to hear this, but dirty play or not you invited aggression with the way you phrased your original post. As has already been said, everyone is entitled to an opinion, but unless I missed something you basically started out by picking a fight. You can't get mad when people accept the challenge. It's just a game everyone and Scutaro is fine so people need to quit acting like babies and chill out. Both sides. 

My response was as follows:

There was no picking a fight. I'm sorry you took it like that. I didn't know that stating my opinion was picking a fight. But I understand your side, but I still don't see me picking a fight.  

His response:

"Go ahead jump all on my ass, you all are going to do it. But I don't give a fuck." is mainly what I'm talking about.  

I came back with:

I know how people respond to posting opinions on Facebook. That's why I posted what I posted and how I worded it. Was no way shape or form trying to pick a fight. If I was picking a fight, I'm sure I would of had more people on there chiming in.  

Then things began to get one sided:

Well like I said, people on both sides should take it down a notch. It's over and done with. Expressing an opinion is one thing, but this thread goes way beyond that. I'm sorry you got the messages you got, but in my opinion you could have handled it better as well. Be the bigger person. Just my two cents. I hope you have a better night.  

I chose not to respond to that comment. I want to know how me stating my opinion was trying to pick a fight. Shit is ridiculous. I have had a night to sit and ponder on this, so I am not as pissed off as I was last night, which is probably a good things. I would of said things that probably would of made me sound down right stupid. I was expecting people to post their opinions, which is fine, but when you go past that and start putting me down and putting things in my mouth, like I was out of line with my responses and that I was 'trying to pick a fight', you went a little too far. If you didn't like what I posted you had 3 options. You could of posted that you do not agree, ignored my post all together, or delete me. I have known this person for well over 10 years and he knows that when something bugs me I will post about it. Ugh. And on top of it all, people were sending me messages because of this post. I think I got 15 in total, 4 people ended up deleting me because of it, but I thought I would share the best of one them all: 

"You are a ghetto ass bitch of an A's fan. You wouldn't know a dirty player if you saw one because your teams is full of them. So shut your damn fucking mouth when you don't know what the fuck you are talking about."

Obviously this person does not know me for me. They are a friend of a friend. I met them a few times through a friends, and they added me just because. It didn't bother me. But if they ever paid any attention to anything I have said over the few years I have known them, is I cheer for the A's because they are my home team, but I am a die hard Red Sox fan. Born a Sox fan and I will die a Sox fan. I sure the fuck am not ghetto. I may have grown up in Pittsburg, but I am not where near stupid, ignorant ghetto that this person thinks I am. And as for the A's being such dirty players, let me just remind this person, that you have a few old A's players on your team that at the time of playing with the A's have had a few 'dirty' plays. Everyone has one eventually, but not intentionally. Oh and yes I am a bitch, but I was never one to you. But as of right now, I am going to be the biggest bitch whenever I see you. I do not hate the Giants, but I am beginning to hate some of the Giants fans that cannot take the opinion of someone other that a fellow Giants fan. Stupid pathetic people always seem to make me laugh.