Friday, February 23, 2018

Not Like Myself

I miss the days in which I blogged all the time but I feel like school and life have taken over. Like right now... I should be working on a paper for Italian Renaissance Art History but here I am writing a blog post instead.

I tried to keep writing in my journal but that seems to have fallen by the waste side. Go figure right. If there anyone here that remembers the time when I would post all the freaking time? Every little thing that happened in my life I would post about. Not so much anymore.

I really want to post a life update but I feel if I do whoever sits and reads this would be sitting at their computer for days reading every thing that has gone on that never got put on the blog.

If it makes you feel any better I have one of my TV shows that I've fallen behind on playing in the background of me writing and it's Black Friday commercials? Holy hell... you think I'm behind much?

Oh and did I mention that I started watching Downton Abbey and I am completely addicted? I hate that it isn't on anymore. But once I finish it I can cross another thing off my '30 things to do in my 30th year'.

That's yet another thing I've failed at. It's almost March and I've only gotten like 5 or 6 things crossed off that list out of 30. #epicfail

I guess that is all for now. I really need to go and start writing my paper.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

17 Dead in Shooting at Florida High School

It seems all too often that we turn on the TV these days only to see that someone has shot up a school, or business, or home, or movie theatre. It's fucking sad that world we live in.

Today... a 19 year old male arrived at his old high school, one in which he had been expelled from, and shot and killed 17 people and injured many more (hopefully this number does not rise). He planned this. He went into the freshman building, pulled the fire alarm, waiting until the hallways were filled with students making their way to the exits, and opened fired on those innocent lives. It is unsure if it was all students who were killed or if there were staff members in that number.

It doesn't fucking matter if it was all students or if there was staff killed or injured.... the fact is these people went to school/work today, Valentine's Day, first day of Lent, and did expect to not be heading home tonight.

Lives of every student at that campus today were changed. Lives of every staff member at the school was changed today. Parents lives changed today. Friends lives changed today. First responders lives have changed today. Our nation has changed today... and it changes all too often.

As I sit here listening to politicians talking about gun control and background checks for guns.... if they government tells someone they can't have a gun they will just get it from somewhere else. There is something called a 'black market'. People can get guns in many different ways. Gun Control is not going to be a huge help in this. I know a shit ton of people will argue with this comment but you know what... I don't care.

I hate knowing that kids are going to school today and having 'active shooter drills' as often as they eat lunch. It's fucking disgusting.

I have not brought a child into this world... and frankly I will go my entire life without having children if this is what they are going to have to live through for 13 years of the educational career.

Fuck this world we live in!

Prayers for those who were affected by the tragedy in Parkland, Florida today!

Thursday, February 1, 2018

3 Week In...

We are already 3 weeks into the semester and I already feel like giving up. The class I thought was going to be hard is actually not going to be and the class I thought I would enjoy the most has become the class I absolutely hate with a passion. The teacher knows what she is talking about but the shit she is making us do is ridiculous. The assignments, the papers, its all so confusing. She doesn't explain things well which just makes the matters worse.

Thank god my senior thesis is done in pieces or I would really be shit out of luck. But tell me... I am a history major... have been for some time now... and I am still struggling with identifying primary sources. Yes I get some people struggle with that their entire life, but I never assumed I'd be one of them. And I am not one to ask professors because that makes you sound fucking stupid and they don't like they. If you didn't already know.. Professors are judgmental.