Yes I Know

I know my cousin and I have been through some hard times but I am so glad I have her to vent too. I refuse to vent to anyone down here because everyone down here is bound to take the oppositions side. I'm over the high school shit that people live for down here. I've been out of high school 10 years and I don't plan on going back. I really wish people would grow the fuck up already. I really do. I wish everyone could be a grow up when they are the age of 25 and above. Yup. That is all. I'm done now.

Not So Good January

So January wasn't out to that great of a start and it never really got better. Started out New Years with a not so big bang, which is fine. That I didn't mind at all. Slowly started getting ready for school to start and trying to get some stuff in order to transfer, which has yet to be done because Marsha and I can't seem to sync our schedules and find a good time to meet. Either I have something going on or she is out of the office or sick. It's going to have to get done soon because I believe I can apply in the fall. School started and that was fine. My classes aren't really all that bad. Math, History and Yoga. Math is the only class I'm worried about. The other two classes are just fill in classes. I was all set to start my happiness project this month but as we can tell it didn't go very well. I'm just so over January and truthfully over 2015 and it just started. Ugh.

First Week Of Spring Semester

Well the first week of Spring Semester is officially over. It's been a crazy week with a crap ton of homework already. Yoga will be my easiest class for sure, but Math and the online History class I am taking is going to be the death of me. My History teacher thinks we have no other classes that we are taking and that we have all the time in the world. Yeah ok. Some of us want to get out of the JC system not stay it in any longer. This lady is crazy. I'm just saying. Math is going to be interesting I can say that. So far I remember a lot from previous semesters of Math. So far things are ok but I'm sure that will change when we get a little farther into the semester. She allows us to use a calculator, hopefully on the quizzes, that would be nice. If we can I will have no problem in this class. We all know I hate math.

In other news...

Christina has officially moved back to Texas. So we don't have to deal with her shit anymore. The house is cleaner than I have seen it in almost a year. The bathroom is still clean, the kitchen is still clean, it's so nice. Josh has decided that he is joining the Marines. So in a few months he will be gone. Now if Chris and I can just get out on our own then I wouldn't have to deal with this shit anymore.

Happiness Project

For 2015 my only resolution is to better myself, whatever ways possible. I decided not to make a list a mile long of things I will probably never commit to. This way it's easy and anything I do will better myself. I am starting out with creating my own Happiness project. I have a new objective every month to try and better myself with. I just finished reading "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin. This book has been the most eye opening book i've ever read. She has inspired me to really want to change a lot about myself emotionally and mentally, not that much psychically because that's not what this is about. It's not about how you look it's about how you feel about yourself. I've kind of used her happiness project as my outline with doing almost the exact same resolutions during the months, but how I achieve them might be a little bit different. I was amazing that there was someone else out there that was going through some of the same stuff that I was going through or even just felt like on a day to day basis. Thank you Gretchen Rubin for writing this book and speaking to millions of reading all across the world, including myself.

I have broken down the months into categories. I only have gotten through May but I'm sure as the months go on I will find things that I need to work on to make myself happier.

January: All About Energy
     I will be spending all of January trying to give myself more energy. Starting to take a multi vitamin again, reading more, less TV, more walking and exercising, healthier eating and such things of that nature.

February: What I Love About Your Love
    February is all about really showing the people who I love dearly that I do love them. I need to better relationships with them such as spending more one on one time with them and just being there for them like they have been there for me for so many years.

March: The Sky's The Limit
     March is when I really sit down and figure out what I want to do with my education. Do I want to pursue more than one degree? Do I want to do a multi subject credentialed teacher? Basically about my future.

April: Lighten The Mood
    This month is probably the most important for me. I really need to learn how to not let the little things get under my skin. To brush off the little things and really focus on what matters. I need to find different way to displace my angry or disappointment instead of yelling or getting angry for things that really don't need to be a big deal.

May: You Only Get One Mind
    This month I want to really focus on keeping my mind at ease. Mostly through meditation and yoga. I used to be a very calm and laid back person, but now I am all worked up and tense and having a lot of stress. Stress is not good for anyone. I really want to get rid of it.


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