Battlefield :: Lea Michele

It's easy to fall in love
But it's so hard to break somebody's heart
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Once lust has turned to dust and all that's left's held breath
Forgotten who we first met
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

We both know it's coming
Does illusion count for something we hide?
The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie

You and I
We have to let each other go
We keep holding on but we both know
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun
Be strong for both of us
No please, don't run, don't run
Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield

We seemed like a good idea
We seemed like a good idea

No blood will spill if we both get out now
Still it's hard to put the fire out
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Feelings are shifting like the tide
And I think too much about the future
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

We both know it's coming
Does illusion count for something we hide?
The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie

You and I
We have to let each other go
We keep holding on but we both know
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun
Be strong for both of us
No please, don't run, don't run
Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield

We seemed like a good idea
We seemed like a good idea
We seemed like a good idea

Christmas Has Come And Gone

Yes. Sadly the year is almost over. Where the hell did the year go?

Christmas eve was at my grandma's house. Nothing big just dinner and presents, and of course a drive by Mr. Christmas's house. Christmas day started at Chris' house, then off to his dad, then his grandma's and then back home for the big dinner. By then I was so tired I was out before I hit the pillow.

Don't really feel like writing a whole lot. Sorry.

Seriously

Ok. So we have been having some plumbing issues for the last couple of days. The showers won't drain when we shower, sometimes the toilets back up because the shower is backing up, which is causing them to over flow, and newly added, when we do laundry and the washer drains, it's all draining and backing up in the toilets. Now we are on day 3 of this issue. Chris' mother has known about this since it started. She has sat on it for the first day, went and bought some DIY stuff to try and that didn't work. It seemed to make it worse. Then today she called a plumber to see what she should do. They told her to rent a snake to try and unclog the clog. Ok. Mind you, none of us have actually showered since Monday. We have all been sponge bathing from the kitchen sink and washing out hair there as well. The toilets work on occasion, and yes people are still doing laundry even though it goes into the bathtub. She has decided to wait until this weekend to do anything about it. Why? None of us have any idea. Chris' stepdad got so frustrated last night that he ended up going to his mother's to shower because he needed to go to work. This house is starting to smell gross because of all this backed up water. I don't see how anyone can live like this. I am so ready to pack a bag and go spend some time at my house or my grandmother's house because there is hot water, not to mention peace and quiet from a screaming 2 year old who always gets his way and when I tell him NO, it's like the devil has arrived. It's a little bit of a hell hole here.

Well now that I've gotten this out of my head, I guess it's time to get on to other things...

This Place

... is starting to drive me nuts. I feel like I am going to explode at any moment. This is not the way I want to live my life. I miss my own home. I miss my bed. I miss the peace and quiet, the cleanliness. EVERYTHING! I need to get out of here like yesterday. I can't even post any more about it because I get too worked up about it.

I Have To Post This... Not Sexual Harassment

(CNN) -- Amid a tidal wave of negative publicity, a Colorado school system has let a 6-year-old boy return to school and said it won't classify his kissing a girl on the hand as sexual harassment.

The story of first-grader Hunter Yelton made national news and spurred outrage this week after word spread that his school near Colorado Springs suspended him for the kiss and accused him of sexually harassing the girl.

On Wednesday night, CNN affiliate KRDO reported that Canon City Schools Superintendent Robin Gooldy met with Hunter's parents. The superintendent then changed Hunter's disciplinary offense from "sexual harassment" to "misconduct."

The boy has also returned to school at the Lincoln School of Science & Technology.

The boy's mother, Jennifer Saunders, told KRDO the whole thing stemmed from an innocent crush Hunter had on a girl in the class. He kissed her on the hand during reading group. That landed him a two-day suspension from school and an entry of sexual harassment in his school files.

Saunders admitted Hunter had problems at school before, getting suspended for rough-housing and for kissing the same girl on the cheek.

But the label of sexual harasser outraged her.

"This is taking it to an extreme that doesn't need to be met with a 6-year-old," Saunders told the station "Now my son's asking questions, 'What is sex, mommy?'"

Jade Masters-Ownbey, the mother of the girl Hunter is accused of kissing, told the local newspaper that the school district was right in protecting her daughter.

The mother, who is also a teacher in the school district, said Hunter had tried to kiss her daughter "over and over" without her permission,according to Canon City Daily Record.

"I've had to coach her about what to do when you don't want someone touching you, but they won't stop," Masters-Ownbey told the newspaper.

Reaction online to Hunter's story was swift, with the majority of commenters expressed pure outrage.

Gooldy, the superintendent of Canon City Schools, told HLN on Tuesday that students aren't labeled sexual harassers after the first innocent grade-school kiss. But if unwelcome contact or touching continues, it will be noted in the student's file, he said.

He said the school system had to look at all sides of the story.

"Our main interest in this is having the behavior stop because the story is not just about the student that was disciplined, it is also about the student receiving the unwanted advances," he said.

CANNONBALL :: Lea Michele

Break it down
Break it down
Break it down
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
Break it down
I couldn’t close my eyes I was pacing all night
I think I found the light out the end of the tunnel
I couldn’t find the truth I was going under

But I won’t hide inside
I gotta get out, gotta get out
Gotta get out, gotta get out
Lonely inside and light the fuse
Light it now, light it now, light it now

And now I will start living today
Today, today I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball

Freedom
I let go of fear and the peace came quickly
Freedom
I was in the dark and then it hit me
I chose suffering and pain in the falling rain
I know, I gotta get out into the world again

But I won’t hide inside
I gotta get out, gotta get out
Gotta get out, gotta get out
Lonely inside and light the fuse
Light it now, light it now, light it now

And now I will start living today
Today, today I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball

Break it down
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
Break it down
I gotta get out into the world again

And now I will start living today
Today, today I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
Like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball

Update Time

Well the final grades are in for the semester. Let me start with a little back story before I give out my grade.

So we had a research paper that was due in November. She wanted 8-10 pages. But knowing me, I like to write a lot and my topic was something I could get way more than that. I was writing about Childhood Obesity and Technology. Ok.. so moving on.. I wrote 13 pages. I didn't think it was going to be that big of a deal. Well she handed back our papers on Monday. She marked me down a full letter grade because I wrote too much. I didn't follow her guidelines so she had to mark my down. Ok I understand marking me down a little bit not a full better grade. And because the paper was worth almost half of our final grade it brought me down a full letter grade in class. I was pissed.

Anyways... can't change it now. I ended up going from a B to a C in her class and ended up with a C+ in her class for semester. Not the grade I should of gotten but I still passed and the grade is accepted by UC Merced. Oh well. Moving on to next semester. I have one more English class left to take and then I am done forever with English classes at the College level.


Christmas is literally right around the corner. Still not done with Christmas shopping but a good portion of it. Most of the stuff we ordered should be delivered today. Then I can spend the next few hours wrapping because we know it's my favorite thing to do. I am not fancy with it, I just like the fact that it calms me down when I am stressed out.

Christmas And New Years

With Christmas 19 days away and New Years only a week after that I guess it's time to go through my people who I have lost and who I have gained this year. The people who have made a difference and some who haven't done shit.

Lets always start with the good. :)

Amy: Like always, you have always been there for me. Whenever I needed someone to vent to or just tell me it was going to be ok, you were that person. And this year you did something for me no one else has ever done. You made me a Godmommy for the first time to your 4th beautiful child Joshua Edward Eudy. And with the birth of Sir Joshua, you have given me yet another Nephew.  I am so excited to be the one Joshua can look up too, beside you and Andrew has he is growing up. Thank you for this blessed life journey.

Mallory: Haha I think last year you might have been on the list of people I really couldn't stand, but as I got to know you, you have become one of my closest and best friends I have ever had. Behind Amy that is. :) We are so much alike it is scary. I love how we have had the chance to experience some really cool trips together, whether it's a 7 hour car ride to LA for a week at Pomona or driving to the Rim Fire just to take pictures because we can. Thank you for being someone I can run to when this house gets to be too much for me. And just remember that you are like family now, and we take care of our family. So get used to it.

Alex: I know this year had been a little up and down for us, but what is new. You moved away, which was not cool, but hey, what can we do about it. You come down when you can which is better than nothing I guess. It's so nice to see you putting forth the effort and finishing school going head on into it. We are proud of you, no matter what. Just keep your head up even when you just want to give up.

Christopher: I don't know what to say about you. You get on my nerves and sometimes I just wish you would disappear but you never do. A girl can drew can't she? Haha. No you have been the shoulder I cry on when things get rough, even when it was the death of a actor that I never met before. You just sat there and let me cry on your shoulder because you knew that was just what I needed. I know pathetic. But you did it because you knew it was important to me. You sat and watched every Glee episode he was in and even in some cases cried with me. I can never thank you enough for that.

Another Hero Watching Over Us

Today the world lost another inspiration. Nelson Mandela passed away. I have many favorite quotes from him. Here are just a few...

"I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear."

"Money won't create success, the freedom to make it will." 

"In my country we go to prison first and then become president."

"Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world." -Nelson Mandela. I will have this quote posted in my classroom one day.”

“For to be free is not merely to cast off one's chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others.”

“If you want to make peace with your enemy, you have to work with your enemy. Then he becomes your partner.”

“There can be no keener revelation of a society's soul than the way in which it treats its children.”

“We must use time wisely and forever realize that the time is always ripe to do right.”

“I detest racialism, because I regard it as a barbaric thing, whether it comes from a black man or a white man.”

“A good leader can engage in a debate frankly and thoroughly, knowing that at the end he and the other side must be closer, and thus emerge stronger. You don't have that idea when you are arrogant, superficial, and uninformed.”

“To deny people their human rights is to challenge their very humanity.”

“No country can really develop unless its citizens are educated.”

“Our single most important challenge is therefore to help establish a social order in which the freedom of the individual will truly mean the freedom of the individual.”

Rest in Peace Paul Walker!

Our world was forever changed again on November 30, 2013. Paul Walker was taken from us, along with his good friend and business partner Roger Rodas, in a single car accident in which the car they were traveling in crashes into a light pole, then into a tree and the the car burst into flames. We lost a son, a father, a brother, an uncle, a friend, a companion, a hero, a role model. 

It's another one of those moments where our generation will be asked, "do you remember where you were when you heard the news about Paul Walker?"